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Last Thing I Wanted

Updated: Jun 10, 2018


"It is astonishing how short a time it takes very  wonderful things to happen."

Relationships.


We have all had our fair share of breakups, makeups, and everything in between. A relationship that started out wonderful and ended up in heartbreak. A relationship that changed us, made us different, more guarded. We tend to not open up right away, not trust easily, and become pessimistic about having another relationship. I say these things, because I have experienced these feelings. There was no part of me that wanted to be in a relationship anytime soon. Although I knew I would find someone eventually, I didn't believe I would have someone, so quickly, who makes me feel the way I have always dreamed of.


Until I got you.



"The unexpected moments are always the sweetest."

I can still remember the first time we hung out, I was so nervous. It's not like it was my first time meeting him, it was just the huge crush I had always had on him. I remember thinking that we would have nothing to talk about, but the moment I walked through the door, we (mostly him) couldn't stop talking. There was so much to learn about each other. That night, we spent hours and hours just talking. The guy I had a crush on was even better than I could've imagined. We talked, and joked, and laughed all night long. I realized that night that he was just as goofy as I was, especially considering that we talked about how nervous we were (who does that?). We finally decided to call it a night at 4am. I vividly remember driving off and cheesin' the whole way home, already thinking about the next time I was going to see him.



While I will spare you the details of all of our adventures after that night, I won't spare the details of how he has made me feel since then. I have always been a huge believer in being 'pursued' by someone who wanted to be with me, but I never fully understood it, until I felt pursued. A friend of mine once said, "Pursuit is the end game. Pursuit is focused. Pursuit shows the girls that they're the only one. Pursuit builds trust and removes any trace of doubt. Pursuit lets the girl know that she is the treasure." I have felt nothing short of a treasure the past few months. I truly never believed I would ever fully trust someone again, but I have, because of his genuine pursuit of my heart.

"The right man for you will pursue you. Actively. He won't leave you wondering whether he's into you or not."

For the first time, I've found someone I hate leaving. I've found someone I can't get enough of. I've found someone I miss the moment he walks out the door. I've found someone that accepts me for who I am. I've found someone who actually thinks my jokes are funny. I've found someone who makes me feel adored. I've found someone who makes me feel beautiful. I've found someone who protects my purity. I've found someone who pushes me to grow. I've found someone who brings out the best in me. I've found someone that has made me believe in love again. But above all, I've found someone who feels the exact same way about me.



I have always heard "one day, someone will walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else."

I'm so thankful you walked into my life and made me realize just that.

"I want to have adventures with you."

Ever since that first nerve racking adventurous night, I've known that we were special. That the way we talk and laugh around each other is different than everybody else. That I will never meet anyone I can be more myself around. And I think most people search their whole lives trying to find what we've already found. The past few months have been a very unexpected adventure, but one I am more than ready to continue on. So I look forward to more Mexican food dates, running through sprinklers, laughing about how weird we are, then laughing about how weird our laughs are, ignoring the movie and just talking, but most of all,  I look forward to falling in love, more in love than I ever thought possible.

"Falling in love....sounds like an adventure."






"It was the last thing I wanted, now it's all I want."

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